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CPTSD: VARIATION ORIGINATING IN EARLY LIFE
complex trauma describes both children’s exposure to multiple events—often of an Invasive interpersonal nature—and the wide-ranging, long-term effects of this exposure. They usually occor early in life and can disrupt many aspects of the child’s development and The formation of a sense of self. Since these events often occur with a caregiver, they interfere with the child’s ability to form a secure attachment.
Research has shown that children who experience early childhood trauma, abuse or neglect are more likelY to go on to develop profound and long-lasting mental health problems in adulthood, such as complex ptsd. This differs from ptsd which is more typicallY associated with a single traumatic incident or set of traumatic events.
The risk of developing complex ptsd is greater if the trauma or abuse is repetitive and prolonged, involves harm or abandonment by caregivers and if it occurs At a developmentally vulnerable age such as early childhood or adolescence, which are critIcal periOdS of brain develOpment.
The Pain Forest
LITTLE BABY BLUE FISH
WHERE COULD YOUR DADDY BE?
HE’S GONE AWAY AWHILE TO SEE ALL HE CAN SEE.
LITTLE BABY BLUE FISH
WHERE COULD YOUR MAMA BE?
IN HER ROOM BLOWING BUBBLES, 1, 2, 3.
LITTLE BABY BLUE FISH
WHATEVER WILL YOU DO?
I’LL GO AND FIND ANOTHER PLACE
WHERE I’M NO LONGER BLUE.
WHERE COULD YOUR DADDY BE?
HE’S GONE AWAY AWHILE TO SEE ALL HE CAN SEE.
LITTLE BABY BLUE FISH
WHERE COULD YOUR MAMA BE?
IN HER ROOM BLOWING BUBBLES, 1, 2, 3.
LITTLE BABY BLUE FISH
WHATEVER WILL YOU DO?
I’LL GO AND FIND ANOTHER PLACE
WHERE I’M NO LONGER BLUE.
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IT IS MY BELIEF THAT MANY OF US WHO HAVE COMPLEX PTSD ARE NOT PEOPLE WHO ARE SELF-PITYING AND “OVERLY SENSITIVE” (THOUGH SOME ARE HSP, HAVING A FORM OF NEURO-DIVERGENCE, WHICH IS ACTUALLY A GIFT). WE ARE PEOPLE WHO SPEND A GREAT DEAL OF OUR TIME TRYING TO REGULATE AND TO APPEAR NORMAL WHILE MANAGING FLASHBACKS THROUGHOUT EACH DAY. THIS PROCESS IS DEPLETING AND CAN ROB US OF EVEN THE SMALLEST JOYS OR SENSE OF WELL-BEING. WE ARE THOSE WHO HAVE SOUGHT HELP FROM EVERY SOURCE IMAGINABLE, OFTEN HIGH-FUNCTIONING AND PRETENDING WE ARE WELL-ADJUSTED, COVERING OUR TRUE SELVES. TO BE VULNERABLE AND AUTHENTIC IS TO PLACE OURSELVES IN PSYCHOLOGICAL DANGER. SAFETY IS PURCHASED THROUGH CAMOUFLAGE. THOSE WITHOUT COMPLEX PTSD OR WHO ARE NOT TRAUMA-INFORMED HAVE NO WAY OF UNDERSTANDING THIS CONDITION.
I DO BELIEVE THERE ARE JEWELS OF RECOVERY TO BE FOUND. I HAVE FOUND MY OWN JEWELS ALONG THE WAY AND THAT LIST IS GROWING~~~
WHAT IF LIFE IS NOT THE DISTORTED DREAM WE ARE IN? WHAT IF IT IS ACTUALLY A MAGNIFICENT UNFOLDING MYSTERY? IN SINCERITY AND HOPE, I SHARE SOME THINGS THAT HAVE HELPED ME ON MY JOURNEY. MAY SOMETHING HERE, IF ONLY HONESTY, HELP ANOTHER WITH CPTSD.
I DO BELIEVE THERE ARE JEWELS OF RECOVERY TO BE FOUND. I HAVE FOUND MY OWN JEWELS ALONG THE WAY AND THAT LIST IS GROWING~~~
WHAT IF LIFE IS NOT THE DISTORTED DREAM WE ARE IN? WHAT IF IT IS ACTUALLY A MAGNIFICENT UNFOLDING MYSTERY? IN SINCERITY AND HOPE, I SHARE SOME THINGS THAT HAVE HELPED ME ON MY JOURNEY. MAY SOMETHING HERE, IF ONLY HONESTY, HELP ANOTHER WITH CPTSD.
www.resilientretreat.org (my heartfelT thanks to this beautiful agency)
30 day challenge forward focussed, richard Grannon
TonY a’s 12 sTeps
tony a Talk, Steps for Aca, youtube Feb 1991 (the audio is what it is for that era)
Friendly Circle Berlin
Complex PTSD: From Surviving to thriving, pete walker
Eggshell transformation: imi lo
The bear, andrEw krivak
lama aria drolma: youtube and instagram
valerie (vimalasara) Mason-john: youtube and insight TImer
Tara Brach: podcasTs and youtube
thE holistic psychologist: podcasts and youtube (thanks sidney!)
sarah blondin: podcasts and Youtube (Thanks Brigitte!)
thich nhat hanh: plumVillage.org and youtube
tian Dayton: Youtube
natasha adamo: Blogs and Youtube
polyvagal exercises for safety and connection, deb dana
emotional literacy course, Richard Grannon
fightmaster yoga: lesley Fightmaster, R.i.p. (for All she gave while She was here)
appreciation to her family FoR continuIng access on youtube
Dr. Michal rubin, Phd, lpc, lpcs (The first therapist or person i could reveal splinters to)
Lisa Reidsema, ma, lmhC, cap, cctp (emdr specialist/artist who Believed When i didn’t)
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~~~Slowly, gently, with self-love and courage, let us arise from the comfort of our despondency~~~